Who needs a title??

So, I think that the reason that I don't blog as much anymore is because I don't do anything! Now, now don't misconstrue that statement. I'm in no way bored or do I want to go back to work. :D I was merely stating a fact. Gotta do shit in order to have shit to write about right? That's what I thought.

But, here I sit because I'm going to get back into the blogging thing. Partly because it's fun, partly because it's therapeutic. Mostly because I want to finish something that I started damnit! It's too easy to just walk away. I was thinking about that the other day. I'm great at the start, but when it comes to the long haul, I tend to just walk away. Maybe cause my dad did?? Hmmm, guess this is where blogging comes in handy huh? I get shit off my chest and you people are entertained by reading. I like it.

I'm like a cheetah, not by any means in the physical sense. Good for short bursts then in some cases I just get bored. Work was a prime example of that. Granted, I worked for someone that should never have been promoted to a district manager due to her lack of people skills, but after a while my job got boring. It was the same thing over and over again. I can only move the aisle so many times before I snap like a twig and go apeshit. For those that don't know, that's pretty much what happened to me. What we at the house refer to as "The Incident". It's really rather comical now, but it wasn't at the time. Totally not in control of myself and that's something that NEVER happens to me. Totally went off topic there didn't I?

Anyway, it's like I get bored with some things. With others it's just that I don't want to deal. Some situations that can be ugly or have the potential of being ugly I have no desire to deal with. So, I just don't. I'm sure a lot of it is stress I put on the situation. I always think about the worst possible outcome. You know, to prepare myself. So sometimes I think about the worst possible outcome and to avoid that, I just opt out. Walk away, cut myself off. It's just easier that way. And I can very easily cut people out of my life. Just ask my mother. Hmmm, guess that'll have to be another blog in the near future huh?

I need to work on not psyching myself out and always assuming that the worst is going to happen. Now if only I could tell my brain to stop doing it. LOL So much easier said than done right? Maybe this blog will help with that. I'll get my anxiety out on here through words and see how that works. Hmmm, can't hurt right? Didn't think so.

Alright, I think that's all for right now. I may be back later and post more, I may not. Not sure what's on my agenda for today.

So...

I keep telling myself that I need to blog again and I come and check things out, and then I leave without writing a single word. Why is that? Good question and maybe someone out there can answer it for me.

I started blogging when I was first out of work as a means to keep me busy and to, I guess, help clear my head about things. I guess my head's pretty clear now though. I love being a stay at home husband. LMAO!! Of course, who wouldn't, but I REALLY enjoy it. I don't mind going to the grocery store, doing the laundry, cleaning, dishes and all of the other things that a house husband does. Most of all, I love the time that I get to spend with the girls now. It's been almost a year since I've had to work a late night or a weekend. I can't even put into words how amazing that feels.

I know that eventually I'll have to rejoin the working world, but until that day I'm going to make sure that I enjoy this time off. For a long time I felt like I had no other choice but work like a freak of nature and make lots of money because I was a materialistic bastard. I'm still somewhat materialistic, but I have learned what I can and can't live without. Most importantly, was the realization that the girls come first and foremost and all the other stuff can wait. This time at home has definitely put the priorities in order for me. :) Needless to say, I'm thrilled about that.

Well, let's see if this sparks off some more serious blogging. Apparently there are some of you that still come here and read this so I should get better about giving you new info. Also, if you have any questions, please ask. I'm sure some of you read this and are like, what the hell man?? I'm an open book and so long as you're respectful, I'll always respond. :)

Worried

I'm worried about you. Don't tell me not to, because it's what I do. I'm here if you need me.

Can't even help it

I see her pics and I'm done. Just, done. Damn!

Old man

So it's happening. I know I've said that it doesn't bother me, and for the most part it doesn't, but I'm getting old! Yes, this is a part of life and the natural order of things, but it's always tough to swallow it when something happens that makes you realize just how old you are.

Oh, yeah and as always she's the one that's still around.

Always the asshole

Exactly what the title says.

Thank you

Just wanted to post a quick thank you to the person who got me blogging again. Hadn't been here in months and then decided that I needed to get those feelings off my chest. Blogging is def the way to go.