Sorry for the lapse

I know it's been a while since I've posted, but...such is life. Actually, the sun has been out so I've been feeling better. Until today. I'm not sure what today was about, but I wasn't myself. I mean, I even went out for a while today. Went for a walk through a state park that we have here, as well as went and sat by the beach just to get some fresh air. Even with all of that, I was still down in the dumps.

I'm not sure if it started this morning when I got up, or what. All I know is that I couldn't really shake it all day. Even took my happy pills today. Of course that's something that I thought about. I'm not used to taking meds, but at the advice of a few loved ones I've decided to take my happy pills on a more regular basis. I will admit that it does take the edge off, but after today I wonder if maybe the meds have something to do with my mood. Who knows. I'll talk to the Dr. again tomorrow.

Speaking of the Dr. That's one of my concerns. Which could also be part of my angst. Don't like visiting doctors much. I've seen more doctors these last two months than I have in the 11 years that my wife and I have been together. There are a few other reasons that I won't go into, but those that are close to me know about.

Let's hope that tomorrow brings a fresh start and a better day. I'm gonna try to just have a good day no matter what. Not let anything get to me. Regardless of what it is. People say not to worry about things that are out of your control. I know that, but it's so much harder to actually do. I've got to learn to shut my brain off and just relax. Anyone know how??