Sad day

I have these from time to time. Been a bit more frequent recently. Damned weather. I'm missing our first gf a lot today. I always miss her, as not a day goes by where I don't think about her. Today's a little harder for some reason.



Started when I was on my way home from the store this morning. A particular song came on and I instantly thought about her. The particular song made me think about how much I missed her and how much I love her. Still do and always will no matter what. (Guess that's a perk to being Polyamorous. I know that I can love her, my wife, and my gf equally)



When I got home, I hopped online like normal, and I got an email from our first gf's sister. I don't hear from her often so it was kind of a surprise albeit a pleasant one. The email was one sentence and basically said how she loved her so much and it hurt. It does, there's no doubt about that. I heard once that time doesn't take the pain away, it just dulls the edge. That's probably the best and most accurate way to describe what I feel. That pain is still there, it's just not as sharp as it used to be. Doesn't go away though.