Magenta

Interesting title for a post isn't it? Let's see if any one out there knows why I used it. So, today's another one of "those" days. I'm not sure what the issue is, but it's been going on since last night. Just been very blah. Guess it's a combination of feelings that are all tumbling around. The weather isn't helping either. Damn rain!

I don't think I'm depressed or anything, just having a blah day. Been thinking about Lori a lot lately. I know that doesn't help much, but I can't NOT think of her. I've been told that I need to find a happy medium, and there are times when I think I've found it, but it only turns out to be temporary. Talking to someone really didn't help either. Maybe I just have to realize that this is how life is going to be from now on. Maybe that's what I need. To just accept that fact that I'm always going to be a little sad because she's not here. I wonder if I keep trying to just get over it, and that's actually what's making it worse. Who knows.