Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Don't have the words

I don't have the words to express how I feel. I try so hard to think about it just being a friendship, but the fact is that I harbor hope. I wonder what it would be like and all I can do is smile. I know it's something that you can't understand and that it's not for you, but in my head it all works out. In my head I make you as happy as you deserve to be and treat you like the princess that you are. But I know that will never be.

I've loved you for a long time and will always love you. I'm sure of that. But I just don't know if I can do this. I see your pics, see your name and I instantly light up. How is that bad, you ask? It's not except that it's unrequited love. I guess I could just continue to secretly love you and wish that you were here, but is that any good for me? I don't know.

There have been others and I always compare them to you. Or if not compare, then say that I wish it was you that was even thinking about this. I wish that it was you who were asking me all the questions about how it could possibly work. Every one that has been even remotely interested always is second fiddle as far as I'm concerned. If I had my choice, I choose you. I'll always choose you.

I love you more than you know and I wish I could tell you but I can't. I wish I could show you how deep my feelings for you go, but I can't. I wish I could be the one to hold you and kiss you and tell you how much I love you every day, but I can't.

I'll always love you